How I Got Hit With Kundalini

Many years ago, my husband and I were invited to a spirit-filled church by a dear friend. What we didn’t realize—at least not at first—was what kind of so-called spirit was actually filling this church.

Prior to this invitation, our own previously tainted church experience had led Ryan and I to step away as church planters and ministry leaders after an executive decision was made to align with a very prominent—and questionable—mega-church movement.

It had been quite some time since we had attended a physical church at all, so we were genuinely looking forward to fellowship in what we hoped would be a spiritually safe environment. We even felt a cautious sense of excitement about the possibility of finding a new church home, especially because the friend who invited us was a well-respected minister within that congregation.

The service began with worship. The wife of the lead pastor shared a song she had written about a vision she claimed God gave her while driving through the mountains one weekend. As she sang, I felt an internal hesitation so I didn’t immediately join in with the usual swaying, hands raised, eyes closed posture.

Something felt… off. But instead of honoring that check in my spirit, I convinced myself I was being overly critical. So, I pushed past it.

The music made me feel energized and alive as I surrendered to the lyrics—unaware that I had just opened myself up to a seducing spirit. Suddenly, within minutes, I felt a euphoric connection to “the spirit.” About thirty minutes later, emotions intensified and the atmosphere thickened as the charismatic pastor began sharing his dramatic testimony of coming to Jesus.

At the end of the service, people were verbally persuaded to come to the front as what was being touted as a powerful move of “the spirit” surged through the room. One by one, bodies began jerking. People fell to the floor. And suddenly, others were lining up—hungry for the same experience.

Then the pastor motioned for me to come forward. At first, I politely declined realizing that I was spiritually worn down, running on fumes. But, my discernment guard continued to lower as he shared intimate details about the “season” I was in, hitting all the tender places where I desperately wanted reassurance and clarity.

As he prayed over me, I closed my eyes taking everything in like oxygen. Then his voice grew louder and more intense as He began issuing prophetic decrees and declarations over me. Before I had time to process what was happening, he placed his hand on the top of my head (as they all do) and shoved me aggressively backward.

I hit the floor—still in my dress—completely stunned, embarrassed and confused. And as I lay there trying to orient myself, I noticed my dear friend was also on the ground just a few people away from me.

In that all-too-familiar moment, I knew I had just been hit by a counterfeit spirit. The entire drive home I felt contaminated. Dirty. Even violated. My husband tried to reassure me that it wasn’t my fault. But I knew better. As a minister, I had taught on these very things happening to other people—just not to someone experienced like me.

Shortly after, a splitting headache set in as the entire incident replayed over and over in my mind. To me, it was unmistakable. As a deliverance minister, I knew exactly what had happened. To those unfamiliar with the spirit realm, this may sound extreme—but physical manifestations can absolutely follow improper laying on of hands.

I am acutely aware of how counterfeit spirits operate. These symptoms were not random. They were manifestations.

Sadly, most people will never recognize the exact moment they are infected by a familiar spirit masquerading as the Holy Spirit, because they want to believe their encounters are genuine moves of God. In many cases, these spirits will even go dormant—so the person never connects the dots between a contaminated church experience and what begins unfolding in their body, mind, and spiritual life days or weeks later.

Thankfully, I was able to reach a close friend who is also an experienced and anointed deliverance minister. Together, we prayed and confronted what had attached itself—and gradually the pressure in my head eased and the symptoms began to lift.

For days afterward, the enemy tried to torment me with thoughts of how naïve I had been.

How careless I was.

How “disqualified” I felt.

The irony of it all was that two weeks after this incident, I was hosting a woman’s seminar on the topic: How to Identify Counterfeit Spirits in the Church. You can imagine how fast shame tried to flood in and how quickly the enemy whispered, You’ve been exposed. You’ve lost credibility. Sit this one out.

But after wise counsel, repentance, and deliverance, I made a decision not to hide behind the incident but instead to expose it by doing exactly what Scripture teaches—to take what the enemy meant for harm and let God redeem it for good.

So that Saturday morning, in front of about sixty women or so, I got honest. I told my story. And I used my own experience as part of the teaching—because what happened to me is exactly what is happening all over the church right now. In fact, the unsettling truth is that counterfeit spirits are infiltrating massive segments of non-denominational, charismatic, and Pentecostal churches across the United States.

Second Corinthians warns us that in the last days there will be widespread deception—false apostles and deceitful workers masquerading as servants of Christ.

Scripture goes on to say:

“For Satan himself masquerades as an angel of light. It is not surprising, then, if his servants also masquerade as servants of righteousness.” (2 Corinthians 11:14)

The devil is a master deceiver.

He isn’t nearly as concerned with our ability to distinguish between good and evil as he is with our ability to distinguish between good and almost good.

In these end times, counterfeit spirits are gaining serious momentum through false workers infiltrating the five-fold ministry. They are growing wildly popular, because this deception perfectly aligns with what Scripture says will happen—when people will no longer tolerate sound doctrine and instead crave messages that make them feel good.

These spirits then reinforce error with lying signs and wonders, contaminating spiritually undiscerning audiences and turning them into highly infectious carriers of counterfeit spiritual influence. It is the spiritual equivalent of a pandemic.

If the Church truly understood how these spirits operate, it would be far more cautious about allowing just anyone to lay hands on us or prophesy over our lives.

The lesson is simple:

“Test every spirit to see whether it is from God.” (1 John 4)

We cannot assume that because we are invited to a church—or even because we’ve attended one for years—that we are automatically spiritually safe. Discernment is not optional in this hour.

Be watchful.

Be careful.

And above all—

Be blessed.