I struggled for over twenty years in my Christian walk trying to find my identity. The Lord brought me out of deep deception and sin, including drugs, alcohol, fornication, stripping, and a homosexual lifestyle in which I gave birth via in vitro fertilization to twins. I was married to their mother for ten years. She helped me raise my four children I had from a previous marriage. Their father was involved in drugs and gangs, and very abusive mentally and physically. I was so lost and broken. I started researching churches and found a loving pastor and beautiful congregation with families like mine (many same-sex couples). Right away I became a member of the church and the prayer team. I was growing in love with the Lord staying up all hours of the night praying in my heavenly language, crying out to God in gratitude and thankfulness. Jeremiah 29:13 says, “You will seek me and find me when you search for me with all your heart.”

About a year after attending the church some brothers and sisters of the congregation were doing a church play. Many were gay, lesbian, and transgender. As the skit unfolded the Holy Spirit I heard so loud in my spirit, “THIS IS NOT WHAT I HAVE FOR YOU.” Wait, what, Lord? Am I hearing you correctly? The scales had fallen from my eyes. I saw for the first time all the deception and lies of the enemy. I knew I had to renounce my homosexual lifestyle. It was not easy, but the Lord made a way for me to escape the grips of the enemy. I walked away from my relationship, my financial security, the home we had built. I left it all to follow Jesus. 

I was completely desperate to break free from the loads of guilt, condemnation, and regret from my past, but the Church did not know how to minister to me. In 2022, I was led to Mountain Movers and watched on the sidelines. My fear and shame had me bound, so I kept silent. I was raised to hide all the ugly. But, I knew the Word of God and longed for true freedom in Christ, so I pressed past my fears (the devil is a liar) and started to attend the live calls. For the first time in a long time, I was greeted with so much love, compassion, and grace. The women shared with so much transparency that brought me great peace. I didn’t feel so alone.

This ministry has been such an integral part of my deliverance and healing. Melissa is so patient, kind, and understanding. She truly wants to and is called to set the captives free. Nothing phases her; she has the heart of the Father. I have never witnessed someone deliver a message that yields the sword of the spirit like she does. Let me tell you, ladies, she grabs that sword and uses it to bring destruction to the enemy’s camp.

In mentorship, Melissa did not shy away while I poured my heart and soul out to her. Our conversations often turn into spontaneous deliverance. She speaks truth over me and BOOM!!! The Holy Spirit just falls on me. I have been delivered from the spirit of grief, people-pleasing, shame, timidity, and my bladder has been healed! I felt like a new person. I felt true joy.

The devil had attacked my lungs from youth and I had severe asthma late into my twenties. For the last five years, I have been unable to take full deep breaths, always feeling like I’m suffocating with tons of pain in my chest as I worked out, ran, or hiked. Just recently during a mentorship call, Melissa received a word from the Lord and commanded the spirit of infirmity out of my lungs. A huge tennis-sized ball of phlegm came out and I was supernaturally healed. I had never told Melissa about my lungs. I can breathe fully without pain and feel the air move through my lungs! I have been completely healed!!! The Lord wants us healed and whole.

The opportunities for mentorship and discipleship have never been extended to me from any other ministry. Melissa truly cares for the body of Christ. She gave me counsel based on the Word and taught me my identity in Christ. Finally, after over twenty years, I'm moving forward in my walk with the Lord and receiving true deliverance that yields fruits of the spirit. Yes, demons have been cast out of me from living a past life of perversion, but it’s deeper than that. The Lord has called me into a relationship with Him. I feel clean for the first time in my Christian walk and worthy of my call. I can share my testimony with no shame, just the pure love story of redemption. As I renew my mind daily, I continue to gain more wisdom and freedom.

Ladies, be patient, contend, and fight. Healing and deliverance take time; they do not happen overnight. We need to fight and press forward.

Lord, you get all the glory and I am forever grateful!!!